אהיה אשר אהיה

I am not a poet, so I cannot express the pain that I endure. I am not an artist, and therefor cannot paint you a picture to show you my frustration. I am not a singer, so I cannot let you hear my heart break. You cannot see the tears because they will not fall in front of you. You cannot understand my struggle because I keep it together on the outside. My sleepless nights are hidden under paint. My worst fears are lost inside a dream. My foul mood is expressed through smiles. I fill the void by helping others. I make up for my lack of achievements by praising yours. I reduce my struggles by listening to yours. I ignore my faults by pointing out yours. I am weak, but there is someone who is not. He has felt my pain. He has seen my frustration. He has heard my heart break. He knows when my tears fall. He knows my struggles. He is beside me during sleepless nights. He has not given me a heart of fear. He knows my innermost thoughts. He fills my void. He recognizes me and calls me by name. He has endured my struggles. He reveals my faults to me in love. He is Strong! He is my Shepherd when I am lost, my Comforter in time of need, my Savior in time of weakness, my Deliver in times of fear, my Light in times of darkness, my Lover in times of abandonment, my Teacher in times of confusion, my Beauty in time of defeat, and my King in every moment. He is Yahweh, and He knows my name. He is the Great I AM.

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